I will not make the same mistakes that you did 
  I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery 
  I will not break the way you did 
  You fell so hard 
  I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far 
  
  Because of you 
  I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
  Because of you 
  I learned to play on the safe side
  So I don't get hurt 
  Because of you 
  I find it hard to trust 
  Not only me, but everyone around me 
  Because of you 
  I am afraid 
  
  I lose my way 
  And it's not too long before you point it out 
  I cannot cry 
  Because I know that's weakness in your eyes 
  I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
  Every day of my life 
  My heart can't possibly break 
  When it wasn't even whole to start with 
  
  Because of you 
  I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
  Because of you 
  I learned to play on the safe side 
  So I don't get hurt 
  Because of you 
  I find it hard to trust 
  Not only me, but everyone around me 
  Because of you 
  I am afraid 
  
  I watched you die 
  I heard you cry
  Every night in your sleep 
  I was so young 
  You should have known better than to lean on me 
  You never thought of anyone else 
  You just saw your pain 
  And now I cry 
  In the middle of the night 
  For the same damn thing
  
  Because of you 
  I never stray too far from the sidewalk 
  Because of you 
  I learned to play on the safe side 
  So I don't get hurt 
  Because of you 
  I tried my hardest just to forget everything 
  Because of you 
  I don't know how to let anyone else in 
  Because of you 
  I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty 
  Because of you 
  I am afraid 
  
  Because of you
  Because of you

Sembreak sucks.  Darn.  How could I possibly enjoy a 3 week break if all am doing is watching tv, chatting, eating and sleeping???? Damn.

 I am even feeling like shit today.  I do not know why.  Maybe because once again am not in good terms with my folks like every other week.  Dios mio! I have to have a shopping spree!!!!!! Oh gosh!

 I was talking to one of my closest friends just last night.  The usual topics, the boys in our lives, our crappy lives, useless stuff, stupid stuff and more stupid stuff that only we can find uses.  Then suddenly she quoted how much she already knew me and how long we have been good friends that she can almost instantly voice out what am thinking.  Then it got me.  It is true that we have been so good friends for a while already and she got it right.  I like this guy.  The way he just makes me laugh and all other silly thing he does.  And she knew it.  That was a loud cry to my ears when she said those words.  I did. I really do.  But then again I am bound by my own mind and heart that I don’t know what to make of that reality.  I am scared of what other people might think if I tell the whole world that I like him.  Or even if I tell him, will he reciprocate.  He is my friend.  I’ve known him since the days where I was just starting to be a bad, bad, biatch until this day that am already a badass, burnt, crazy and self-proclaimed lazy biatch.  He knew me then.  And now.  What will my parents say?  What will my other friends say about him????? yeah right.  I don’t know.  I never will if I continue to battle with myself on will I or won’t I.  I will not hurry for love.  Perhaps, it will take a while.  Will I be ready or the better query is will I, out of real, concrete and genuine likeness accept everything about him?  His whole family, set of friends, beliefs, the music he listens to, the way he dresses, his decisions and everything under the sun??? Maybe in time. 

I have yet to set my priorities straight.  I did a good job.  I maintained passing grades and I am a regular student.  I have to continue what I have started oh so perfectly.  Well, maybe not that perfect but just fine.

update...

i just came from fussball practice and my shoes are worst than worst

it was great though

now i am really part of a team

hahaha

sweet!

i Love my teammates!

they're the best! muah!

we aLL rock!!!!